who am I?
Of course the question : who am I? Is really hard to answer, but I'll give it a shot.
I am a girl, 18 (almost 19 ) years old. People know me as the happy, but a bit emo-girl. They just don't know what is going on inside my head. The harder I (I find it hard to use a capital letter for the 'I' because it doesn't feel like I am that important, but yeah) try to smile, the more pain I feel. I have been diagnosed with BPD and I feel very lonely. I just don't want to bother people with my feelings, because in my past I've seen that people (my parents) actually just really don't care. I am writing this blog because I can't have a diary because my mom always reads mine and gets angry because of the things I write down. I have had help, but the people who 'helped' me (psychiatrists and such) gave up on me.
I do have hobbies. I like music, I play the guitar and the piano and I also love to sing.
I have a big family, we are with eight. We are a Catholic family and my father is the boss.
Today I found out I also have generalized anxiety disorder. All those diagnoses don't change a thing, I still feel the same.
I love Demi Lovato, Johnny Depp, God....and of course my friends :)
who am I?